I have taken to going out. Had a pretty rotten time since losing my precious mommy seven years ago but the absolutely overwhelming grief began to lift last July and that, coupled with my discovery of a silly little blue pair of lace-up canvas shoes has really seen things turn around for me.
From going out of the house once every 6 or 7 weeks or so and walking no further than from the door to the car and back again I am now walking several times a week around my beloved Earlswood Lakes and today even ventured into the wood there for the first time!
The absolute hight spot of all this has been .... THIS :
And this is our little feathered friend feeding from hubby's hand (I take a slightly better photo' than he does!!!!)
Walking here is restoring my soul and I really do feel the dark days of the last seven years are now behind me.
The guilt of "moving on" has been enormous and equally hard to deal with but I feel I can now grieve and live at the same time and I shall end this non-crafting post with a quote that really helped turn things around for me.
Debbie, that is a beautiful post. How true the quote at the end is. Having been in a position, many years ago now, of losing a prematurely born daughter after 24 hours, I understand that sentiment, and your reactions to the loss of your Mother, perfectly. We never 'get over' these things, we learn how to let them become part of the tapestry of our lives.
ReplyDeleteThat picture of the robin is amazing, by the way. What a lovely moment in your day.
Hugs, Shaz xxx